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My life is better than your vacation

Home sweet home?
Why is it that I always fall into a small post-travel depression when I come home?
The feeling of freedom in my body suddenly transforms into stress. I immediately start thinking about all the thousands of things I have to do. I suddenly feel tired and I ask myself, why do I live here? Why don't I live there?
It usually feels better after a good night sleep and a nice long run by the water. Then I remember how beautiful the archipelago is. How wonderful all my friends are and I start looking forward to all the things I have to do.
I wrote about happiness earlier, about that you can find it just by booking tickets to the paradise closest to you. And it's true. But it's a short cut to happiness and it can't last forever. So when you have unpacked and your'e facing your everyday life, that's when it's important that you can find happiness, wherever you are. Life is not a vacation. My godfather use to tell me that "my life is better than your vacation". And now I understand how important it is for everyone to be able to say that same sentence. If not, then maybe it's time to make some changes. A year consists of 365 days. How many of them can you really remember? Not many...but the important thing is that you can look back and remember that you have been happy, that you have been living your life. And your vacations doesn't count.
So I had a lovely vacation, but now I am back. And I am feeling pretty great! By the way, I finally have access to the internet again! So there's going to be a lot of blogging again!
My last day in paradise:

Sunny Sunday

I don't think I have enjoyed a Sunday this much for a very long long time. I woke up early again and went running by the beach listening to John Mayer. I felt like free falling. Then I dressed up tp go to the fancy part called Puerto Banus where you can find all the expensive brand in the world. I was drooling outside Missoni, Luis Vuitton, Prada, Balenciaga, you name it!...And I have never seen Yachts like here. They are insane, I can't imagine why anyone would like to own a boat like that? There is absolutely NO POINT?! Just give the money to charity instead. Then I enjoyed the beach and went swimming in the warm warm ocean and finally I tanned by the pool, I am starting to get a bit tanned now! Yay!
I think I changed my outfit three times today just so I can use all of my favorite summer clothes before I go back to freezing my but off. Here's my day in pictures...

The key to happiness is...

...so simple. I have definitely found the answer, and so can you! Just book some planetickets to the closest paradise near you, and suddenly you feel amazing. I have been ridiculously happy today. I woke up early and went for a run by the beach, watching the sunrise. After that it wasn't hard at all to get some writing done, Í felt so inspired! Finallllyyyy! Then I visited a lovely pittoresk town called Casares, where Julius Ceaser himself walked around thousands of years ago! Now I am getting ready to go to a Spanish tapas restaurant! Here is my day in pictures:

Outfit: Shirt INDISKA, shorts self made , belt H&M, sandals from barcelona, bad secondhand

The pittoresk and very white town of Casares. I know one friend who would have liked it ;) Check out her blog HERE

Lisää kuvateksti

Running was suddenly so much more fun, wonder why?

The view this morning. Can't say I wake up to this every morning.

Today...

...has been fantastic. Spain is wonderful! The only downside is that it's a pain in the ass to use the internet here...it is so slow! But after a few nervous breakdowns I managed to upload some photos. So here is my day in pictures.

I love this photo I took with my iPhone! Can you believe that? Apple rocks! This flower is a Strelitzia.

Here I am!

And it feels too good to be true. The sun is shining and I am taning by the pool. Tonight I am going to go and check out the old town of Marbella. I can already feel the inspiration flooding, or is it excitement? It is so beautiful here that it's crazy, the mountains, the beach the villas and the flowers! The view is simply breathtaking, I can see all the way to Gibraltar from my balcony. Some pictures are coming up tonight so stay tuned ;)

Will I ever learn?

I am at Oslo airport. This morning started off with me almost missing my plane and now standing here without my cellphone. Thank god for the internet. But I am so tired of myself...this is not the first time thing like this happen, oh well you can't be good at everything right? I am going to post some pictures as soon as I get internet on my computer...wish me luck, God knows I need i

The sun is calling!

Ah...I can not describe you the feeling of packing out all your summer clothes when you already thought you wouldn't need them for many many months...I love doing spontaneous stuff like this! Makes life so much more fun. Who knew that you could surprise yourself like this.
Soon I will be back on the beach, right where I belong.
Me in Nice, France two years ago...

BE SPONTANIOUS, Spain here I come!

OMG! Guess what?! I just totally out of nowhere booked tickets to Marbella, and I am leaving tomorrow at 07:00 am! I didn't have ANY plans on traveling. But like I told you before I have been struggling with a huge writers block, so instead of just sitting here in my misery I decided to do something about it! So now I am heading south to work on my script under the Spanish sun! I am so excited but kind of freaking out because this was so last minute. I am leaving in a few hours and I haven't packed or made any preparations yet...shit! I have to cancel all my meetings and reschedule everything. Maybe I should have thought this through? Well the tickets are payed for so watch out Spain, here I come!

Outfit

Today I looked like this. Felt a bit like a proud russian woman in my fur.

Jean, red/brown sweater and neclase H&M. Shoes Rills. Fur secondhand

Bigger is not better

Here's a fact for you:
Good food makes you happy.
It's so simple and yet...not. If you know what I mean? My mother, who is a health freak used to tell me this about food. "One minute in your mouth, one hour in your stomach, forever on your hips." Made it so much easier for the teenage me to have a normal relationship to food...not. Well anyway, I think that food is one of the grate pleasures in life, and I want to enjoy my life! So I am never going to give up good food. And the best things come in small packages right? So remember (and I remind myself of this all the time) it is not the quantity but the quality that counts! So get out there and enjoy, just in small doses, because we all want to enjoy life right? And at least I can't enjoy it if I would become fat. Bigger is not better...when it comes to both food and weight. But sometimes, sometimes we have those days when we just want to eat...well I had one of those "days" today. And I have been enjoying it, but now I am so stuffed that I have to go out for a run...

So today has been a gourmet day for me. I started of with my favorite Breakfast, natural yoghurt, berries and roasted sunflower seeds and almonds with my favorite girl Isabella...Yum! Oh...and never forget the coffee! I love drinking it from my Starbucks mug, makes it almost ok that we don't have one over here...

Then I met my brother and grandmother for lunch and we ate a fabulous lunch. My absolute favorite food, sushi! It was delicious!

And then we celebrated an early Christmas with my family because we are not going to be at home this Christmas. In fact we are going to Aspen, Colorado for a month and we won't get any Finish delicacies there, but hey...I am SO not complaining ;)

How to reach your dreams...

Here comes the follow up. You can read the first part HERE


2. Read these books...it's crucial! 
-The Alchemist by Paolo Coelho
-The Secret. 
-Letters to a young poet by Reiner Marie Rilke (even Lady Gaga tells her fans to read this one)


These three books changed everything. Instead of thinking "it's so hard to break into the filminsdustry", I started thinking that "I am going to break into the industry". And that's what it's all about right there. The ONE factor between the ones who make it and don't make it, it's their ATTITUDE. 
That is also a big part of why I left Finland. Everyone here was telling me how "hard it is to make it", that I definitely "should have a back up plan" because "I had to be realistic", and "there was a big chance that things wouldn't work out". I told them that there was no back up plan, that this was the ONLY option for me. When I got to Sweden things were different, everyone was telling me how great they thought my plans sounded and encouraged me. So number three...


3. Make sure you're in an encouraging environment. It makes a big difference. And make sure that you surround yourself with people who are also driven and can inspire you!


Number four on the list "of how to reach your dreams" is coming up soon...


My Dream? Here is one of them.
To live and work in New York.

Today

I felt like dressing like a bohemian princess.
I met my friend Isabella and we did some shopping at a big department store sale. I found some
great things for great prices. I also went for a 50 min run along the beach and ate a delicious dinner with my family.
Then I met my friend Linda and we saw the movie Friends with benefits.
It's been a sunny, busy and wonderful day. The only thing bothering me is that I haven't got any writing done...bad bad bad. I have to get to it FIRST thing tomorrow. No more excuses anymore!
Disciplin!

I love my new Burberry Weekend parfume, heat protector and dry shampoo
from Schwartzkopf, face mask and new hairbrush.

the Dream girl

Who is she? Does she really exist? Is she you?
You probably don't think that yourself at least, am I right?
We all have a picture, or an image inside our head of "the perfect girl". About the girl we would like to be, the person we want other people to think we are.

But why do we want to be like someone else? Maybe it is because we don't that we are enough, simply by being ourselves. Because we don't think that that boy will actually like ME just by being ME. Instead we often put on a mask, or an act, to prove people that we are funny and smart and beautiful and...you name it!
But that's how you get lost. You loose track of who you really are.

I just saw Friends with benefits with Mila Kunis and Justin Timberlake. I immediately noticed myself wishing that I would be more like Mila. Witty and sexy with big eyes and tanned skin. And then there is my obsession with Blake Lively, maybe you have noticed?
I am so angry with myself, for wanting secretly to be more like "that perfect girl".

The dream girl? Is she defined by who WE want to be or who we think OTHERS want us to be?

Here is a test for you if you are in the mood:
Try to create an image in your head of the "types" described below.

1. Who you want to be.
2. Who other people see you as.
3. Who you are.

Take your time to do this. And when you feel that you are ready compare them. Are the images similar or totally different? They shouldn't be that different. If they have no differences at all, that's unrealistic, so try again.

1. who I want to be.
Blake Lively Of course...more like who I want to look like.

2. Who other people see me as.
artsy, funny, walking her own path, doing weird stuff like this photoshoot, clueless..?

Find out who the hell you are

Feeling lost?
Well don't worry. Because we all feel that way occasionally. And the best part is that you can do something about it. So don't just sit there in drowning in the pool of self pity. Get out there! I don't think you are going to find the answer in your computer at least.

Finding out who you really are and getting to know one-self is probably one of the most important things in life. But it is an endless search. Not in a bad way, exploring who you are can be fun! I love growing up and noticing that I am a totally different person than I was a year ago and that my relationship to myself has totally changed and developed.
The best thing to do if you want to get rid of feeling lost is:
TRAVEL

I think that EVERYONE should travel. Take a friend with you or even better, travel with the most important person in your life, only yourself.
You do not need a lot of money, of course the money makes things a whole lot easier, but it is not necessary. 

Traveling does wonders for you. It is good for soul searching and I at least have found so many answers during my travels. You become independent on a whole other level. 

A few years ago I traveled around Europe. I did not have a lot of money. I used couchsurfing.org and one night I even slept on a rock on beach in Venice, but I had the time of my life and came back knowing a lot more who I am a.

I recommend it to everyone. Get out there, explore, live, laugh and figure out who you are! That's really what life is about in the end...

Life is not the days that pass, but the days that we remember...

About reaching your dreams

I know that it can be hard believing in yourself. It's an on going struggle for me at least. Sometimes I hear myself asking; Can I really do this? Who do you think you are fooling?

I am pretty sure that I am not the only one out there asking these questions.

I want to share my tips that really have worked for me.

Me two years ago. A lot more insecure and scared about the future. Now I am just excited, except when it's dark, then I get a bit scared.

1. First of all your mantra should be:

I CAN DO THIS.

Because if you don't truly deeply 100 percent believe that, then nobody else will either. 

Tell yourself every day: I CAN DO THIS.

And you keep saying it until it doesn't sound ridiculous. After that you keep on saying it until you suddenly start believing it. And you say it and say it until it is self-evident. 

I actually had a post-it on my mirror with "I can do this" written on it so that it would stare me in the face every morning and night. 

It worked. 

2. Read these books...it's crucial! 

the rest of this entry is coming up later today!

Tell me if you like this and Please comment! 

I love...

...the leaves of Autumn! So I decided I needed some in my closet as well. I am crazy about the colors of Autumn! I want to cover myself with them. This is what i found on my shopping trip. And the most of it was on sale! I just love making good deals as much when I am shopping as when I am working ;)

What a man and a car has in common...

Shut up and drive! I wouldn't mind cruising around with this baby!
You are probably thinking if I am talking about Gabriel Aubry or the car? Well the thing is (I wouldn't mind cruising around with either one of them) that I saw this car on the street today and it got me thinking...
Finding a car with nice looks, personality and good reliability is as hard as finding a man who fill those same requirements, don't you think?
So if you have found yourself a nice ride (man/car doesn't matter) Hold on to it/him...cause I am still looking.

Outfit

Today I walked around wearing this:
My new top and cardigan, both from H&M. Jeans, belt, hat and bag also from H&M.

Shoes secondhand (thank god something that wasn't from H&M!)


































Later I changed it up and threw on a trench from Stockman.

Let there be light!

Ever felt uninspired? Well if you haven't then your'e lucky. because it's the worst feeling in the world. It empties you. Living nothing but a black hole behind. I was supposed to write today, but I just couldn't. So I sat at a cafe, deep buried in my thoughts, trying to find enlightenment. It wasn't going that well...
Then God said "let there be light", and there was light.
The whole city suddenly bathed in it. And it wasn't the ordinary kind of light, no...it was an electric and a dazzling kind, just magical. And it struck me without a warning. Suddenly everything was changed...And I knew THE answer. Everything made sense. But then the light was gone, just like it never would have appeared in the first place. I heard myself thinking "what was THE answer now again?" and that magical moment was over. But inside of me it wasn't. That black whole was suddenly gone. Instead I felt inspired, and it stayed with me the whole day. So the next time when someone asks me if I believe in magic, I will tell them "yes, because I have seen it." Today was magic...

My latest short

I wanted to share you some screen shots from my latest shortfilm.
It is a out a young girl who is dealing with the fact that her mother is dying. It was shot on 16mm film.
Photographer was the amazing Erik Strömdahl and it was written and directer by me.

The opening scene.

16 mm film is wonderful to work with but usually requires a big budget. Thank you Kodak for sponsoring!